So far, this day was the most exciting day of reading the purpose-driven life book. So again thanks be to God that He made Pau lend me this book.

I never realized that I was made to live forever. I don't even care about my life. I tried and thought about ending it so many times before and that my life was never important. But little by little, by what was happening to me every single day, Lord lights up my mind and shows me what life means.

Reading day 4 made me realize that this life on earth is a preparation for eternity. While I was reading, I saw a vision of myself with Jesus seating somewhere in His kingdom and He is like holding ne and showering me with His love. It made me excited. And as I read more, I became curious of what I will be doing for God in His Kingdom with all the talents He has given me. I find it very exciting to please Him with what I can do for Him when we are already together living in His kingdom.

And then I realized that my training ground for all the things I will do in His kingdom is here on earth. And then I envision a situation talking to my manager telling him that I want to be a people manager. I also envision myself talking to people about God, not only here in my country but also in another country.

I will make it happen soon. I believe that He wanted me to step out of my comfort zone and start my training NOW before my body dies here on earth and until His judgement day.

Lord, God truly I am thankful for your revelations to me. Thank you for showing me my worth in your kingdom. I felt excited and again burning with fire for the eternity I would spend with You, to love You and Serve You and all my fellow believers. I love You Lord Jesus! Thank you so much for pulling me towards You despite of my past and my stubborness.

I want to stop doing what will hurt you and I want to start training myself for the eternity that I will spend with You!