God new before I was born who am I going to be, what would I be like. He designed me and planned my life. He knew where and from whom I should be born because He knew what should I do when I am able to live in that place and in that circle of people.

What my friend had highlighted in the book on the poem above was also the striking stanza for me. It hit me hard earlier this morning when I read it. I had a lot going on this year. I hate this year so much because of all the heartaches I have and have been experiencing. But then I thought, this is also the year I started my relationship with Christ. This is the year I realized that the Lord is more than the one I know before. This is the year where I recognizes His presence and that He is there walking beside me.

I know He designed and created me for a purpose. But I still have some areas to work on. I'm stubborn. I easily get angry. I easily get upset. I easily trust. I easily give up. I easily lose hope. I tend to pressure myself and people around me gets affected. I am very emotional and oftentimes I lose control of myself. All I want is to be happy but I keep on taking opportunities that won't really make me happy in the long run. I have to change that. I have to take control.

This is not who I really am I believe. I was put into a different version of me because of the situations I have encountered during my 29 years of stay on earth. The world truly changes the design of God but if I truly seek Him and accept that what I am right now is not the true me, I know I can go back to what I was designed as and designed for. I will know for sure who am I really and what is my purpose why am I created by God.