"'Lord, please let me see.' Jesus told him, 'Have sight; your faith has saved you.'" Luke 18:41-42

Last August, I went to Japan. It was my dream destination and surely, the trip was a dream come true. The preparations for the trip started even a year before; from the booking of tickets to the last-minute changes in itinerary, the plan was already in place, just waiting to be carried out. Unfortunately, things didn't go as planned. Our schedule was skewed and things didn't go as we imagined it to be. It was supposed to be a perfect and flawless trip. But when I returned, despite the fact that I went there to fulfill my dream, I brooded over the things that went wrong.

How I wish I have a time-turner that time (you know that thing Hermione has in the Harry Potter series) so I can correct the things that had failed. Reality bit me hard telling me "no, you can't". For an entire week, I was contemplating about all the bad stuff, almost forgetting the good things that had happened there. It affected everything - my work, relationships, everything, I tell you. Those seven days was hell; to the point I didn't even go to work or class because of it. It just hit me hard.

I attended a mass on the seventh day (which is a Sunday) and the priest wasn't able to give a homily. Instead, they had a dance number to commemorate their feast day - it was the feast day of the Our Lady of EDSA, Queen of Peace. As the presenters danced, the priest talked about peace in a form of poetry. His words moved me to tears. There was no homily, he was just talking about peace and yet, I cried.

I realized that I didn't have any peace inside of me. All I had was hatred for very small and trivial things. When I got home, it was when I pleaded "Lord, let me see!". I asked God to help me look at the things, the ways He wants me to see it. I grieved of my shortcomings and sadness and told Him to banish these negative feelings inside of me and help me move on from these things that bind me. During the process, I turned to His Word. I bought the book The Purpose-Driven Life and started reading it. It only took a few chapters for me to see His message; telling me that it's okay to make mistakes and there are greater things waiting for me. 

Things may not go as we want them to be. But even if we experience these failures, we still have another day to get up and make them right. I realized that there is no use crying over spilled milk. We need these mistakes to learn and move forward and get things right. To see greater things, we need to believe in Him, have faith and we will indeed see it.

Lord, I surrender my worries and anxieties to you. With all the things I'm carrying inside my heart right now, I surrender them to you. Help me get over these for I can't do this without Your guidance. Thank you Lord for your blessings today. I am not worthy to receive you but if it's in Your will, then I shall be healed.