Many times I had died alive. And every time I do, it seemed so painful and tend to lose hope. I want to hurt myself because I felt like I'm always the one to blame.

Root: SIN

Cause: DESIRES, WEAKNESS, TEMPTATIONS

Analysis: Why do we die? The cause is simple! Committing SIN.

For the wages of SIN is DEATH... Romans 6:23

But why do people SIN? It's because of:

DESIRE: We desire for something. It can be something material, emotional, physical or whatever. Some may want money to buy what they want. Some desires for someone to talk to or be with them. Some desires for flesh.

WEAKNESS: Weakness is something you are not really good at or confident with. Weakness can also be a flaw. Weakness can be that you lack confidence or lack faith. It can also be a point where in you are vulnerable, where you can easily be attacked.

TEMPTATION: Temptation is what you are being offered to when the enemy knows the above causes: your desires and weaknesses. The enemy is very knowledgeable of these things from you and it present you temptations or attacks you in so many different ways unexpectedly.

Let me give you a sample based on my experience. One grocery time, I wanted to go home immediately because I was too tired the whole day coming from an event or something and I was so stressed and exhausted. And all of a sudden my sister asked me to buy her something that will cause delay for me and my Mom to go home. And then my Mom asked me if we can buy a plant from the supermarket. The desire? Me, wanting to go home immediately. The weakness? Me being too tired, exhausted and stressed. And the enemy attacks me using my sister and my mother to formulate my anger. Why me being angry? Because the enemy also knows my weakness or flaw of being hot-headed and gets easily irritated by my sister. The effect was raising my voice towards my Mom. It was so disrespectful of me. And of course my Mom got hurt. And somehow causes death to her. Because that is not the only time I did that, it all piled up one day and we had a fight about me being disrespectful to her. Death was upon me too because of her saying not so good things about me. And it's because of.... TADA... SIN! I don't want to hurt my Mom anymore so every time the enemy tries to attack me, I take a deep breathe, remember how I love my Mom and that I don't want to cause her DEATH anymore. I control my emotions.

Lesson: Don't give in or you will DIE! Hahaha! When you are already in the situation where the enemy attacks, pause and reflect, think of why you are in that situation. Identify your desires and weaknesses and why you are being attacked at that point in time. Control your emotions and don't let the enemy penetrate you.

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. 1 Corinthians 16:13. 

If you are reading this. share your RCA as well through writing a comment on how did the enemy attacked you and what did you do about it moving forward.