“Brothers and sisters, I don’t consider myself to have taken hold of it. but one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.” (Philippians 3:13)

Put the past behind and embrace what is in the future.

As the verse tells, I don't consider myself to have taken hold of it, means that we are not forced or pressured to forget the past and focus on what is ahead. As long as you are doing something about it then it is good enough.

When I was a new christian, I tried to do what the church instructs us to do. Devotions everyday and attend different gatherings such as cell group, Sunday service, trainings, camp, crossovers and encounter. I do it just because I believe that what am I doing is for my benefit and it would make God happy and that I want to do what Jesus is doing. I realized I was exhausted and always tired. I had migraine attacks and felt stressed. I was also very guilty when I sin. I condemn myself over and over again. And I felt heaviness in my heart. Then Pau told me, in one sharing that we have, not to force myself. A person cannot change over night. She told me not to pressure myself and when faced by enemy attacks think what is right to do. Also, Sar, my officemate told me don't do things that the Lord did but first be like Christ and then I will unconsioucly do all things that He did.

What they said to me were revelations I remembered from this verse. I'm no longer forced nor pressured. I can see that soon I can be Christ-like for God designed me to be. In all my ways I will remember to be righteous and holy. Even I am not like that today, I truly believe that I can be, in the future and that is because the Lord will always be by my side and will help me through my journey to go back to Him, to go back to what I really am, in His own likeness.