"Thus says the Lord, your redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: I, the Lord, your God, teach you what is for your good, and lead you on the way you should go." Isaiah 48:17
I am nowhere to be found Lord if not for Your eternal guidance.

Today, I allowed myself to bare everything to my friends; to let them see the possible worst version of me. I told them how I really felt bad when people tend to give me advice when I am with a heavy heart. I told them how I felt sorry for them because even if I knew they meant well, I took everything as a personal attack, like I'm being scolded and reprimanded. I told them how guilty I was having treated them unfairly which is why I wanted to be this honest with them that what I'm going through right now is something I need to resolve on my own. I am in a fight with myself in weighing what is right and wrong in my situation at work and in this life. This is a test of my character. Slowly but surely, I can get over this, feel comfortable, open up and listen to others. I am at the point that it is so toxic already and I'm struggling my way to keep calm and hang on. But I believe in God. I know that there is a reason why I am at a certain place and time. I can get over it. He will lead me to the right path despite this rough and rocky way to the light. Deep inside I hear the voice of the Lord telling me to hang on, be the bigger person and stay honest. It's a struggle knowing that this is what i should do. If this is the way Lord, the one You said I need to take, be it done to me according to your will. You are my Redeemer, Father God. Help me be the daughter, the servant, the laborer, the missionary that You wanted me to be.