God Called Me Again
12:19 AM
"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."
- James 4:8
These past few days, I went to a full-stop from doing the things I usually do that brings joy to me. Because suddenly, I lost the motivation and the reasons for me to do them again.
My world suddenly fell apart, and as the devil devoured me, I did so many bad things that could make me be more unworthy to enter God's kingdom. My heart was broken into pieces, followed by a week-long pause from praying and reflecting, writing in my Scripture diary, socializing, catching up with my fellow "soul"-mates, and more. I totally thrown away everything and made my life simple and quiet. I thought it was much better to have a peaceful life this time, but then, having a peaceful life doesn't mean having a peaceful heart at all.
God knows I am totally in need of help, to get up on my feet again and lead my life to something more joyful for myself and for others. So He spoke to me a while ago, and I heard Him well:
"Come back to me", He said.
When I heard that, I started crying. Why would God want me back? I am undeserving of His love because I am a bad person and a hypocrite. But I realized He wants me back because I am a "light" to so many people - to those who need help. He just appointed me on this mission, thus giving me a wonderful reason to live my life joyfully and righteously again.
Starting tonight, I sworn to God I will not turn my back away from Him EVER again. I will not let the devil win again.
Thank you, Lord, for calling me back, and for giving me another reason to follow You and be Your child who is deserving of your love and grace.
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