“But you have come...to Jesus the mediator of a new covenant and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel.” (Hebrews 12:22a, 24)

I was not born for darkness but of light. I was born because of God. I came here to be with Jesus and God, know His word and experience His promises.

This chapter and verse reminds us that God did not lead us to a world of darkness, that He did not want us to suffer, instead He leads us to Jesus whose blood was shed to heal us, make us whole and perfect, and most especially to save us from sin giving us what we truly deserve as His children.

In every bad situation I had in the past, I saw a lot of negativity. It lead me to depression, doubt, disappointments and caused me to sin. I was always down and very emotional. The pain I felt in my heart caused me to have a hard time to breathe. I can't focus on my work and the things that I had to do. I don't want to wake up and go over another day feeling all the sadness I was caught up with. It was like a domino effect.

I don't want to go back to that. I don't want to feel the hurt anymore. So I have decided to come back to God. The journey has been difficult since the first day. There were a lot of distractions that the enemy keeps on throwing at me and I was having a hard time to move on to my new self. But as I reflect, does God wants me to go back to the old self that He wanted me to let go? That old self who caused me to suffer? That old self who only felt pain and hurting, with temporary happiness? That old self who was uninspired at work? That old self who caused me to be blind and closed to what I truly deserve?

I should not go back to my old self, I declare in Jesus' name, for I have come to experience God's love through Jesus. Lord I pray that you continue to push me to your love even it takes me a lot of rebuking and tests. I will take all the challenges I have to go through along with your help and the wisdom that the Holy Spirit will impart in my heart. I know Lord that You do not want me to come to where I am right now to suffer, instead You wanted me here to give me the life You have planned for me which I truly deserve. Thank you Lord that you continuously remind me and guide me. I will seek you in every day of my life so that I will meet the purpose of why I have come to You. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.