The Real Reason
2:24 PM
Looking back on the phase where I was sad and bitter, I finally realized the root cause - it's because I grew up wanting to be loved and liked by everyone. That is why whenever people show indifference or find flaws in me, I back down. I get affected easily. It is a translation of I'm not good enough to be loved. All these years, this has been embedded in the depths of my heart. I tried so hard to show a Pau that people will love; masking the real Pau who is beaten down, broken and messed up. No wonder that even if there are people who likes me for what I am capable of doing, I still feel empty. It's because I have a part of me I can't accept.
Today is different. Today is the day where the Achiever Pau decided to hold that Messed Up Pau's hand and journey in Life together. I decided to face my battles and not run away from them. It should start from within. Not all people will like me. But it is crucial for me to like me. They may hate my ways and principles and it's okay. People will disagree but I should not disagree with myself. I should stand for what I want. I should fight for what makes me happy. I should accept that I have weaknesses and will find repose with my strengths.
Finally, it's nice to meet you, the real and the whole Pau.
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I love the real Pau! I feel weird when she's not around because I believe in her so much and makes me happy everytime I see her and talk with her! Glad 'that' Pau is found and I am blessed by your life. Your light shines bright and shines more in all the places you walk through for the Lord appointed you for this purpose!
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